Andrew
Murray
It all began when I
was at a Women’s Conference at my Church and two women sang a duet. I could not tell you the title of that song,
but one of the lines spoke to me and I could not get it out of my head long
after the conference was over. It spoke
of kneeling on bended knee in a quiet place to pray with God. It was a beautiful song and touched me
deeply. Right after this, I read in
Matthew 6:6, But when you pray, go
into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father who sees what is done in
secret will reward you. That was in my
NIV which I read every day. I opened to
this same verse in the KJV and here is how it is stated.
But thou, when thou
prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy
Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward
thee openly.
I thought to myself, 'I
am going to try this.' So one day I
entered into my walk-in closet, which is not very big; by the way but you don’t
need a lot of room. I knelt to my knees on the carpet
beside the tennis shoes and laundry baskets and just began talking with the Father.
I invited him into that room and felt goose bumps rising up by back. His presence was there like I had never
experienced before. It was such an
awesome, sacred time that I have continued to do this ever since. Just a small note about the knees, when I was
young, I could sit on bended knees for a long time. As I’ve gotten older, if I do this now for
any length of time, it takes a long time to get up and with much groaning. I usually sit on what my Scottish
sister-in-law calls “the bum”. And at
times, I go fully prostrate on the floor. But my heart is bowing in reverence
to the Lord whatever position I am in.
There is just
something about being alone in a small place, away from all the distractions of
the world, like television, telephone, people, etc. Being in my closet away from all these
distractions allows me to completely get the cobwebs out of my mind and totally
focus on my time with the Lord. This is
not an everyday practice, although I do it quite a bit. Don’t think this is my only prayer time though. I am one of those people who continually
pray. I talk with the Lord all through
out the day. But when I feel the need to
really feel His presence, to do some serious intercessory prayer, to cleanse
myself, when I’m desperately wanting wisdom, I retreat into the closet.
There are times I have
entered my closet angry and have come out with peace. I have gone into my
closet upset and hurting, and have come out comforted. I have stepped into my prayer closet asking
for change, and have come out seeing immediate change. Not always, but sometimes. I have gone in questioning and have come out
knowing without a doubt my Lord has the answers and He will reveal them to me
when He says it is time for me to know.
If you have small children,
you might be thinking, I can’t do this, they would be knocking on the door
wanting in, wanting to ask questions that could wait, but to them seem
urgent. I remember reading a book about
Susanna Wesley, the mother of John and Charles Wesley, who founded the Methodist Church .
She had 19 children. When she
needed time alone with her Lord, she would sit in her rocking chair in the
kitchen and throw her apron over her head.
Her children knew not to disturb her during this time. When my boys were little, I told them that if
the door to my closet was closed, this was not a time to disturb me. I would always try to pick a time when they
were either occupied, or were not even there.
I suggest that you
take your young children into the closet with you and explain to them what it
is to you when that door is closed. Tell
them what you are doing, and that this is a very special, alone time between
you and the Lord. Maybe even pray with
them in the closet that first time that they would remember and respect your
time in there. I believe this will make
an impression on them even if they don’t know how to express it. And it may be the
beginning of an awesome prayer life for them because of what they have seen you
doing.
Do I believe Matthew
6:6 really means to go into a closet, the room where clothes and shoes
are? No, I just believe it means to go
somewhere away by yourself. Mark 1,
verse 35 says even Jesus went to a solitary place where He prayed. If he, the Son of God needed a solitary place
to pray the Father, than I most certainly do!
And don’t forget the part of the verse, where He says to “shut the
door”. I believe this is saying shut the
door of your heart to all those distractions so your heart is fully in tune
with the Father.
A lot of times I love
to pray and talk with the Father outdoors in nature. I feel very close to him there. But, I can also get distracted by the songs
of the birds, dogs coming around, and the sounds of cars going by. I usually am just praising him when I am out
in nature. In the closet is where I do
serious talking and listening. I remind myself
to not just talk, but listen also.
Sometimes when I have nothing else to say, I will just sit for however long,
and feel His presence. And don’t you know how pleased
the Father must be to be invited into that closet because one of his children
wants to be with him. Doesn’t it do your
heart good when your child wants to be with you?
I feel when we learn to hear Him in the quiet of a sacred place as within the closet, then we will hear Him better outside of the closet in the places with noise. If we practice in the quiet closet of being still and know that He is God, it becomes easier to be still in the crowds and noise and still hear and know that He is God.
I would like to challenge you, if you have never done this, to go into your closet and invite the Lord in there with you. You just might feel goose bumps too!
I feel when we learn to hear Him in the quiet of a sacred place as within the closet, then we will hear Him better outside of the closet in the places with noise. If we practice in the quiet closet of being still and know that He is God, it becomes easier to be still in the crowds and noise and still hear and know that He is God.
I would like to challenge you, if you have never done this, to go into your closet and invite the Lord in there with you. You just might feel goose bumps too!
A word of caution: If you do go into your closet and shut the
door, you might want to leave a small light on. I went into mine one time after
a friend called and asked me to pray with her.
I went in; shut the door, the light was off so I could just concentrate
on my friend and praying with her. After
I hung up, I opened my eyes and realized how completely dark it was in
there. I stood up and could not find the
door. Now this was a walk-in closet but
not a very big one. I should have known
where the door was, but I had gotten disoriented, and for the life of me could
not find that door. I felt so silly at
first with my hands out in front of me feeling the clothes, getting on my knees
and crawling around feeling the shoes, but could not find the door knob. After about five minutes of searching, I
started to feel panicky inside. I sat
down on the floor and told myself to just breathe and I prayed asking the Lord
to show me the door and its knob. After
about five more minutes of searching, I found it and got out. The light never looked so good, and even
though I wasn’t suffocating, I took in the air in deep breathes. I told my son, what had happened, and he said
to me,
“Why didn’t you just use your phone and
call me, I would have come opened the door for you?” I looked down and in the palm of my hand I
was clutching my cell phone that I had used to talk and pray with my friend. It didn’t even dawn on me to use it. Can you just imagine how silly that phone call
to my son would have sounded? “Please
come open my closet door. I’m in here
and I can’t get out!”
This incident is a
true story but also a good analogy of when we go through dark times in our
lives. If we will just pray to the
Father and trust Him to rescue us, we will eventually see the light of His
presence, be led out of the dark, and we will just want to breathe Him in and
fill us up.
I believe if we
breathe Him in enough, daily, consistently, the next dark time will not be so
scary; we will not panic and we will know who to call on. And we won’t need our cell phone.
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