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Why a blog from me, someone who has never been a writer, someone who has never been articulate or had a solid grasp of the grammar world. Because God told me to write. Several years ago a life storm invaded my family. God kept telling me to write it all down. I argued, but He would not let up. This went on every day for a couple of weeks until one day out of frustration, (I'd like to say it was out of obedience), I picked up a pen and paper and wrote for 7 hours straight! Do you think maybe I needed therapy and God knew it?

I've been writing ever since and have learned to love it! I started out sharing my stories with friends and family. I've now been published in a Nashville church paper, Our Daily Journey (a devotional site of RBC Ministries), PCCWeb Daily Devotional, Ruby for Women Ezine Magazine, and I am a contributor in the book Alabaster Jars, Life in Abundance Collection 2.

Why Ponderings? During this life storm, God led me to a pond in the woods behind my home. There He met me each time, teaching new lessons, reminding me of old ones, showing His presence and allowing me to feel His love through the surroundings of that pond. I found myself returning over and over to ponder, pray and praise. A healing of my heart took place and out of the experience came my first book, Ponderings From the Pond, then a second book, Ponderings From My Porch, and now a third book is in the works along with a memoir about my storm.

Why am I making myself so vulnerable? Because God has done so much that I cannot keep quiet. I have to share. Jesus's last words to his desciples were, "Go,tell." We are his disciples too and this is just one of my ways of telling.

I'm no scholar but I have heard God's voice in my spirit, experience His love daily, and have a desire for others to experience this also. I would love to share with all who visit and I would love to hear from you. If my sharing gets just one to ponder, to be quiet with the Father, to see and hear from Him or to be reminded of something from Him, then this is worth my vulnerability.

As you visit me, sometimes we will be at the pond, sometimes we will move to the front porch, and sometimes we will just be here, there, and yonder. Thank you for coming and please feel free to come back anytime, you are always welcome here.

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.

Psalm 19:14

*****EXCITING NEWS*****

My first book, Ya Know What I'm Say'n, has been released.


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Friday, June 29, 2012

Changes

*after posting my last two posts, I felt I needed to repost this one, written after last Christmas.  The sweet soul my son has always had is still in there, and I am getting to see it more and more.  He is still much the prodigal, but I believe steps are being made to bringing him home.  When, I don't know. It could be tomorrow, it could be years. But I've learned to trust his care to my Lord and Savior, and I am at peace, waiting with my heart always open. . .*


I had to change the light bulb the other day and got to thinking about all the things that change. Some we do ourselves, others we have no control over, like the changing of the weather. We change out batteries, we change the sheets, new momma's change the diapers, daddy's change the channels. Some change their spouses, others change their jobs and houses. Out with the old and in with the new. Just like the number of our changing years.

Circumstances can change and at times when you least expect it. My family changed years ago in a way that I didn’t like. The precious first born walked away and I was devastated. I wanted to crawl up in a fetal position and hide. . .and I did for awhile. But my God, who does not change, was there with me and would not let me stay in that position. He met me and taught me to stand up and be strong in Him, that my life goes on to live for Him no matter what. He said, “Leave your changes in my Hands to deal with and go on to live, go on to serve.”

In the last five years, so many changes came with this first born child of mine. Every time my mind reeled, God brought me right back in to Him. The God who is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and forever, only with Him could there be peace in the chaotic changes this world brings on.

Change can be bad, good, scary, exciting. Change always brings about some kind of emotion. I’m so thankful for a God who does not change with the winds of emotions, and the changing of circumstances. My God is strong, He is solid, He is steadfast and loving always. He is always there to hold me up and give me blessings, sometimes when I am least expecting.

First born came over our threshold again after many, many months of silence. He got a hug from his momma. As the lights twinkled on the Christmas tree, he pointed to a bag with a tree on it and said, “That one’s for you.” I opened it up and drew out a beautiful shiny black box with an even more beautiful silver engraved label with the inscription on top, “Love you Mom”.

First born immediately got a hug from his momma. Then I opened the shiny black box and found a beautiful pen with a quote he had inscribed on it. . .

“One joy scatters a hundred griefs.” So true! First born got another hug from his momma.
He said to me, "I know you like to write, so I wanted to get you a nice pen." A thoughtful thought from him. . .he got another hug from momma!

Change. . .I never know from one day to the next what will happen around me, but I’m sane because I serve a mighty God who never changes. I find comfort in that. I find strength in that.

What changes will tomorrow bring? I don’t know but God has it in His hands. And I will always hold that Righteous Right Hand of His and it will all be ok.

Do changes scare you? I'll be honest, they scare me sometimes, I'm only human. But I know from experience to look to the One who never changes and call out to Him. He’s right there. He is a light that never needs changing. Let's take His Hand and never let go. Through the changes we don't like, holding His hand, we can learn from them and move on. And for the good changes, let that joy scatter the griefs and let's praise His Holy Name!



Once in a great while I get to have one of these joys. . .


and I praise God!

9 comments:

Denise said...

Amen, amen.

Reformed rebel said...

This is a beautiful post Kristin. The last pic is priceless!
I like what you said...Through the changes we don't like, holding His hand, we can learn from them and move on.
Reading your blog is a good way to start my Saturday morning. Thank you for sharing your stories and your thoughts.
Blessings...Chelle

marlece said...

Kristin, I can feel your heart in this post. A Momma who wants her baby to be safe and cared for yet it isn't received that way. HURTS!

I know this hug, I can almost feel it with you. You are a good Mom, you are a good Mom!

Recovering Church Lady said...

Hi Kristen, my heart goes out to you and I can identify with your prodigal situation very much. The mean phase is a tough one to wade through, I've been there with Rocker Son but things are better between us now even though he still rejects God.
It WILL GET BETTER. Praying with you and for you.
Susie

kdsullivan said...

You should write a book for mother's of Prodigals...

Vicky said...

I just spent the last few minutes catching up on the previous two posts. What a mighty pull on my heart this is... I'm so glad you are writing a book- a compelling book chock full of so much love and wisdom... my oldest is turning into a "man" at 12, before my very eyes and as he begins the push away, I too find my prayers centered on keeping him tethered to love- His love, my love- in some small way.

Jedidja said...

Amen. This is so great!

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