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Why a blog from me, someone who has never been a writer, someone who has never been articulate or had a solid grasp of the grammar world. Because God told me to write. Several years ago a life storm invaded my family. God kept telling me to write it all down. I argued, but He would not let up. This went on every day for a couple of weeks until one day out of frustration, (I'd like to say it was out of obedience), I picked up a pen and paper and wrote for 7 hours straight! Do you think maybe I needed therapy and God knew it?

I've been writing ever since and have learned to love it! I started out sharing my stories with friends and family. I've now been published in a Nashville church paper, Our Daily Journey (a devotional site of RBC Ministries), PCCWeb Daily Devotional, Ruby for Women Ezine Magazine, and I am a contributor in the book Alabaster Jars, Life in Abundance Collection 2.

Why Ponderings? During this life storm, God led me to a pond in the woods behind my home. There He met me each time, teaching new lessons, reminding me of old ones, showing His presence and allowing me to feel His love through the surroundings of that pond. I found myself returning over and over to ponder, pray and praise. A healing of my heart took place and out of the experience came my first book, Ponderings From the Pond, then a second book, Ponderings From My Porch, and now a third book is in the works along with a memoir about my storm.

Why am I making myself so vulnerable? Because God has done so much that I cannot keep quiet. I have to share. Jesus's last words to his desciples were, "Go,tell." We are his disciples too and this is just one of my ways of telling.

I'm no scholar but I have heard God's voice in my spirit, experience His love daily, and have a desire for others to experience this also. I would love to share with all who visit and I would love to hear from you. If my sharing gets just one to ponder, to be quiet with the Father, to see and hear from Him or to be reminded of something from Him, then this is worth my vulnerability.

As you visit me, sometimes we will be at the pond, sometimes we will move to the front porch, and sometimes we will just be here, there, and yonder. Thank you for coming and please feel free to come back anytime, you are always welcome here.

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.

Psalm 19:14

*****EXCITING NEWS*****

My first book, Ya Know What I'm Say'n, has been released.


Ponderings

Ponderings

Monday, January 2, 2012

The D Word

The D word. . .when said this way it sounds negative.  When it comes to something you don't like, like exercise, if you don't like exercise, it can be.  When used with something like bible study, it can be positive. I'm choosing to see the D word as positive.  What is the D word, my new one word for the new year . . .







Not this kind. .


ouch!
No, No!


DISCIPLINE is going to be a good word. 
Things I want to become more disciplined in. . .

drinking lots of water
keeping it simple
fasting
bible studying
exercise
writing
eating healthier
playing the piano
working on book
saving money
spending time on others
witnessing


I do most of these already, but sometimes laziness can creep in. I want to be even better. . .more disciplined.  That is the goal for this new year. 

Will I be successful?  Will I not?  With Jesus Christ, ALL things are possible.  I will always put Him first, before the task, so. . .it is possible and that gives me hope.  My hope is in Christ, so I'm thinking this is gonna be good:)

So, as I ponder on the Living Water, I'm off now to get my big glass of water. . .and how do I plan to be better at this one?  A fun, funky new glass. 


Do you pick a word to focus on for the new year?
I'd like to hear what it is!

"With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."
Matthew 19:26



                                                      







Saturday, December 31, 2011

Thoughts from 2011

I lost my chronologically oldest friend Ms. Anna. (age 90)  Let me rephrase, she is not lost, I know where she is, she went to be with the Lord,  Jan. 15. (I'll introduce you to her in a post soon) 

Nothing can stop two people from bonding regardless if they are ebony and ivories, regardless if there are many decades between them.  The Lord can entwine whoever He chooses.

Feb. 16, our beloved pastor Dr. Day, from Edmond, Ok died.

Around 700 + blankets were given away at the beginning of this year.

Christopher got accepted into WKU (Mar. 23)

Read awesome book and began my list of 1000 blessings.  (1000 Gifts)

Learned a new word. . .eucharisteo (thanksgiving)

When God doesn’t answer a prayer, say. . .for like 6 months. . .or 9 years. . .trust in His timing

When the answer comes and He says “GO”, you need to go.

I had no idea I would receive so much love through the blogging world.

Planking was a funny fad that seemed to pass by quickly.

Befriended another “ebony”, an ex con, 6’3, a surprise and a blessing.

Watching and listening to one come "into the fold" is the best thing ever!

Am just as in awe and thankful for my own salvation this year as I was 37 years ago. 

I can really speak in front of a hundred women and not throw up.

A goat, chickens and ducks are more fun to buy than sparkly trinkets.

You can survive the loss of a beloved pet, although it’s painful and I cried like a baby in the office.

My vet is compassionate, offering Kleenexes and mailed us a Sympathy Card.

Read another awesome book that changed my life even more than the above one, Kisses from Katie.

Becoming a part of a new Coalition for Homelessness is something I never thought I would be a part of. . .but so glad I am.

Read two other books that I loved even though very convicting. . .we should be convicted right?  (Revolution in World Missions and Radical)

I can cut a 1000 strips of paper for a Christmas party craft and still use my hand. . .with the help of Aleve.

I tried Greek food for the first time this year. . .liked it!

When asking for donations, be specific. . .ended up with gallon sized bags of condoms and pregnancy test kits.

You can still love looking at the empty plate at the dinner table.

Pain hurts but doesn’t kill.

College finals week puts a mother on her knees.

You can still be friends with people who think Dr. Pepper is horrible.

My memory is getting worse.

Sticky notes are my new best friend.

Three year olds think if you miss your dog buried in the back yard, you should just get them back out.

God continues to pull me out of comfort zones.

Never, ever, thought I would be in a newspaper or on the radio!

My voice will never sound grown-up.

Sitting in an emergency room with friend for over 3 hours is enough to make one want to drink!   We prayed instead.

Dust bunnies are not really bunnies, more like little devils and just continue to grow.

Got me a “shark” that eats those little devils.

Never thought I would be teaching people how to cut, strip and roll plastic bags into “plarn”.

I didn’t even know what plarn was until this year.

I have some of the best friends ever!

Jesus Calling was my new favorite devotional this year.

Mother-in-law was given a terminal diagnosis.

In my 20’s, 30’s and some into my 40’s, would have shopped till I dropped.  NOW, I have no desire to go into another mall.

Simplicity is sounding more and more like Heaven.

I need to become more disciplined in many areas.

I think discipline and simplicity will go hand in hand.

It all ready became some this past year.  That’s how college got paid with cash.

The yard does not HAVE to have flowers.

Looking for the blessings is not so much a matter of looking as it is just being aware.

When we are not being aware and focused, we miss SO much.

I cherish my quiet time and solitude.

I met the greatest couple this past year and am so blessed to know them.

Decisions need to be Spirit led and not people pressured.

I have learned more about grace through the “least of these” than from anywhere else.

The hands can be filthy but the heart can be gold.

Judging from appearances is SO not right!

Patience can make SUCH a difference!

Compassion can make SUCH a difference!

Sharing Christ's love with no judgements can make a grown man cry.

If sainthood medals were given to husbands, mine would definately have one.

Love being able to say, "I've been married for 30 years."

God continues to show up in the smallest of details.

Each time I needed a shot of boldness, He gave it to me.

I was invited to go on a blog tour starting this next January with a Christian author and entrepreneur along with others.  Not sure what all this means, but am excited to find out.

When one waits, God fills the empty places with blessings.

"One joy scatters a hundred griefs."

Throwing a Christmas party for the homeless some told me, was the most rewarding Christmas they have had in years.  This makes me smile.

Going outside of oneself is the best trip one can make.

I’m turning 50 this next year and I’m ok with that. . .no, I am grateful for that!

I’m so thankful once again, for another year of my Lord being with me, walking through the storms, the fires and trials, standing on the mountaintop with me as well as in the valleys of shadows and doubts.  With Him, I have no need to fear and with Him I have everything to praise Him for.

To God Be The Glory!



Hallelujah and Amen!
May your new year be filled with God's presence wherever you are, whatever your circumstances and may you be filled with His peace that passes all understanding and joy that spills over into your smile.
God bless you!

Friday, December 30, 2011

I Am Thankful For My God, Why?

Because. . .

1)      He forgives
2)      He is caring and compassionate
3)      He fights for me
4)      He will pass through the waters for me
5)      His words are trustworthy
6)      He shows unfailing kindness
7)      He continues to love me when I am unlovable
8)      He is the same yesterday, today, and forever
9)      He is faithful to His promises
10)  He watches over my loved ones when I cannot
11)  He will wipe away every tear
12)  His right hand sustains me
13)  He is my rock and my redeemer
14)  He restores my soul
15)  He drives out fear
16)  He lifted me out of a slimy pit
17)  He gives a peace that passes all understanding
18)  He lights my path
19)  His judgments are true and just
20)  He heals the brokenhearted
21)  His grace is sufficient for me
22)  He teaches me to be content whatever the circumstances
23)  He gives me rest when I am weary
24)  He gave His Son as a ransom to set me free
25)  He raised His Son from death to conquer and gain the victory
26)  He is bigger than the storms
27)  His love is based on His character and not my performance
28)  He is a reconciler
29)  He is a friend giver
30)  He and only He offers eternal life.






  • "Praise the LORD! Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever. Who can utter the mighty acts of the LORD? Who can declare all His praise?" Psalm 106:1-2













  • WE CAN!











  • Wednesday, December 28, 2011

    Change

    I had to change the light bulb the other day and got to thinking about all the things that change. Some we do ourselves, others we have no control over, like the changing of the weather.  We change out batteries, we change the sheets, new momma's change the diapers, daddy's change the channels.  Some change their spouses, others change their jobs and houses.  Out with the old and in with the new.  Just like the number of our changing years.

    Circumstances can change and at times when you least expect it.  My family changed years ago in a way that I didn’t like.   The precious first born walked away and I was devastated.  I wanted to crawl up in a fetal position and hide. . .and I did for awhile.  But my God, who does not change, was there with me and would not let me stay in that position.  He met me and taught me to stand up and be strong in Him, that my life goes on to live for Him no matter what.  He said, “Leave your changes in my Hands to deal with and go on to live, go on to serve.”

    In the last five years, so many changes came with this first born child of mine.  Every time my mind reeled, God brought me right back in to Him.  The God who is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and forever, only with Him could there be peace in the chaotic changes this world brings on.

    Change can be bad, good, scary, exciting. Change always brings about some kind of emotion.  I’m so thankful for a God who does not change with the winds of emotions, and the changing of circumstances.  My God is strong, He is solid, He is steadfast and loving always. He is always there to hold me up and give me blessings, sometimes when I am least expecting.

    First born came over our threshold again after many, many months of silence. He got a hug from his momma.  As the lights twinkled on the Christmas tree, he pointed to a bag with a tree on it and said, “That one’s for you.”  I opened it up and drew out a beautiful shiny black box with an even more beautiful silver engraved label with the inscription on top, “Love you Mom”. 

    First born immediately got a hug from his momma.  Then I opened the shiny black box and found a beautiful pen with a quote he had inscribed on it. . .

     “One joy scatters a hundred griefs.”  So true!  First born got another hug from his momma. 
    He said to me, "I know you like to write, so I wanted to get you a nice pen."  A thoughtful thought from him. . .he got another hug from momma!

    Change. . .I never know from one day to the next what will happen around me, but I’m sane because I serve a mighty God who never changes.  I find comfort in that.  I find strength in that.   

    What changes will tomorrow bring?  I don’t know but God has it in His hands.  And I will always hold that Righteous Right Hand of His and it will all be ok.

    Do changes scare you?  I'll be honest, they scare me sometimes, I'm only human.  But I know from experience to look to the One who never changes and call out to Him.  He’s right there.  He is a light that never needs changing. Let's take His Hand and never let go. Through the changes we don't like, holding His hand, we can learn from them and move on. And for the good changes, let that joy scatter the griefs and let's praise His Holy Name!
    

    Tuesday, December 27, 2011

    The Golden Ornament ( Christmas is Over. . .Or Is It? )

    As I contemplate taking down the Christmas tree and all the decorations; packing and putting away, I wonder about the New Year and what it holds in store for me.  What circumstances will I be a part of, what people will come into and or leave my life, how will the Devil try to attack me this year?  Don’t get me wrong, I’m not worrying, just wondering.

    As I see the packaging boxes in my garage waiting to be filled with Christmas, it’s always a little sad.  So last year I kept one of the golden ornaments out and kept it hanging in my entry way all year.  It will stay there from now on.  Even though the Christmas holiday is coming to an end, the Christmas spirit can go on forever and the glistening of that ornament is just a symbol of that.  Again, don’t get me wrong, I never need a reminder of my Lord, He is with me always, but when those hot, humid months roll around, the feeling of Christmas, good tidings, good cheer, the giving spirit that we feel in December, sometimes, somehow gets lost by June. 

    I must not be the only one with these thoughts because of the quotes I found.  Here are just a few. . .

    “I have always thought of Christmas time, when it has come round, as a good time; a kind, forgiving, charitable time; the only time I know of, in the long calendar of the year, when men and women seem by one consent to open their shut-up hearts freely, and to think of people below them as if they really were fellow passengers to the grave, and not another race of creatures bound on other journeys.”  Charles Dickens

    “Christmas is not a time or a season, but a state of mind.  To cherish peace and good will, to be plenteous in mercy, is to have the real spirit of Christmas.”  Calvin Coolidge

    “Keep your Christmas heart open all the year round.”  Jessica Archmint

    “I will honor Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year.”  Charles Dickens.

    Christmas is not just a time on the calendar, but is the baby in the manger who came to save mankind.  Peace and joy is not just for December but for always if we accept the one who came to offer it.  As I think about the coming New Year, I look at that golden ornament with the light flickering from it and know that the true light of Christmas is within me, so I look forward with anticipation and eagerness to start it, knowing that Christmas is with me always.  Let’s not say farewell to good tidings, Christmas cheer, a giving spirit, peace and joy.  That can be with us for 12 months, year after year. 

    I have seen people I know along with strangers come together in love and compassion to help the less fortunate this Christmas season.  My heart leapt for joy every time I saw a new donation for the homeless and needy children.  That is truly a gift; a compassion flowing forth to those who need help, need love spread all over them, need the touch of Christ from another fellow human being.  May this keep going on month after month.  And if I ever start to forget, may the Lord use the sparkle of light from my golden ornament to remind me of Christmas, Christ in the every day, of giving, spreading good cheer, feeling joy that only comes from Him, and peace that passes all understanding; reaching out and loving the lovables and the unlovables. 

    May you all have a bright and shining New Year.  And don’t be surprised if you hear me say “Merry Christmas” in June.