Why a blog from me, someone who has never been a writer, someone who has never been articulate or had a solid grasp of the grammar world. Because God told me to write. Several years ago a life storm invaded my family. God kept telling me to write it all down. I argued, but He would not let up. This went on every day for a couple of weeks until one day out of frustration, (I'd like to say it was out of obedience), I picked up a pen and paper and wrote for 7 hours straight! Do you think maybe I needed therapy and God knew it?

I've been writing ever since and have learned to love it! I started out sharing my stories with friends and family. I've now been published in a Nashville church paper, Our Daily Journey (a devotional site of RBC Ministries), PCCWeb Daily Devotional, Ruby for Women Ezine Magazine, and I am a contributor in the book Alabaster Jars, Life in Abundance Collection 2.

Why Ponderings? During this life storm, God led me to a pond in the woods behind my home. There He met me each time, teaching new lessons, reminding me of old ones, showing His presence and allowing me to feel His love through the surroundings of that pond. I found myself returning over and over to ponder, pray and praise. A healing of my heart took place and out of the experience came my first book, Ponderings From the Pond, then a second book, Ponderings From My Porch, and now a third book is in the works along with a memoir about my storm.

Why am I making myself so vulnerable? Because God has done so much that I cannot keep quiet. I have to share. Jesus's last words to his desciples were, "Go,tell." We are his disciples too and this is just one of my ways of telling.

I'm no scholar but I have heard God's voice in my spirit, experience His love daily, and have a desire for others to experience this also. I would love to share with all who visit and I would love to hear from you. If my sharing gets just one to ponder, to be quiet with the Father, to see and hear from Him or to be reminded of something from Him, then this is worth my vulnerability.

As you visit me, sometimes we will be at the pond, sometimes we will move to the front porch, and sometimes we will just be here, there, and yonder. Thank you for coming and please feel free to come back anytime, you are always welcome here.

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.

Psalm 19:14


My first book, Ya Know What I'm Say'n, has been released.



Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Just Plain Tired!

Mathew 11:28-30:
Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my  yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.

I am tired! And I feel guilty for saying that. There are people all around me who do so much more than I do and they deserve to be tired. But I just can't help it. . .I'm tired. . .physically, emotionally, mentally.

I don't think there is anything wrong physically. I just feel worn out. It's hard to get out of bed sometimes. I do hurt in the joints, the muscles, headaches here and there, but I think that is just normal aging going on. I also am just worn out in the brain.

It shows up in my writing, or the lack of writing would be a better way to say it. I have ideas, I have a good start to a second book, but it all just sits there. I stare at it every day and all I can do is think. . .I'm just so tired!

Someone said to me awhile back, "You've shown such compassion to others for so long, maybe it's time for you to show some compassion to yourself." HHmmmm. . . . it sounded funny at first, but then when I find myself out in the back yard sitting on the swing and crying for no reason at all, I begin to think maybe those words need to sink down deeper into myself and be taken seriously. I've been pondering a lot lately and I think about how even Jesus needed to get away for a little while. I am by no means comparing myself to Jesus, whew, how absurd! But it does go to show that the earthly body needs to rest, needs solitude, needs time for reflection, for regrouping.

I have this ongoing conversation with the Lord. I even talk out loud some times and my son has caught me mumbling and he smirks at me. I think he thinks I'm getting old. Maybe THAT'S why I'm tired!

Anyway, I told the Lord I need rest and I need it in Him. So I'm taking a break from the Homeless Outreach at the bridge this week, a place that I absolutely love, from the people I love, because right now. . .I just need to rest, rest my heart, and I'm going to have a little of compassion for myself. And I am so sorry if that sounds selfish. I don't mean to be, but I think the Lord is calling me to rest, to rest in Him, and for this week, I need to rest in Him away from the norm.

I'm so thankful that I serve a Lord who understands my heart, understands this body of mine, understands this mind he gave me. I don't always understand it myself and that is why it is so refreshing to know I can go somewhere where it will be understood.

I'm going to go rest now, rest in His arms and listen to whatever He wants to say to me. I know I'll be back out there next week because I know from these last five years, it's when we open our arms to love that healing comes back, even if it's just for tired bones and mind. But for now these arms need to rest.

Have you ever been so tired mentally, emotionally, you just wanted to go somewhere and cry?
I hope you have a place you can go and remember that He is always near with open
arms waiting for you to come in, to lay down and rest.
Ya know what I'm say'n


Hazel Moon said...

Perhaps it is time for a cup of your favorite tea and to just kick back and rest. When I get really tired, it is because I am low on minerals especially iron. My blood tends to be anemic anyway, we I cook up some prunes and eat 2 or 3 as they are rich in iron. For a time I gave my kids a spoon full of molasses also rich in iron, and they loved it. There is a time to push back and rest and that is what you need at this moment! ♥

Kristin Bridgman said...

Thank you Hazel, you are always so sweet to me! I don't know about them prunes...maybe I could just take an iron pill? ;)

Susan Shipe said...

I totally hear and "know what you're sayin'!"
Bonnie Gray calls it Whitespace. Go rest and have peace about it. Remember there is no condemnation. I am going to whisper a couple extra prayers for you sister. xoxo

Hazel Moon said...

Two or three prunes will give you iron just don't eat more than three !! Raisins are also full of iron, but eat only a small handful. The iron pill is never as good as nature.